There are several goals in my head. And because I’m an avid planner for just about everything – even grocery shopping – sometimes I get myself a little lost.
The number one goal I need to complete is losing the weight. Oh dear I hate saying that..well..typing, but it’s just as bad to admit. I have gotten over the hurt. So technically, my firstishgoal has been completed.
Goals at the top of my head as of this moment:
ONE – GET OVER THE FACT YOU AREN’T IN THE BEST SHAPE EVER.
TWO – GET UP & GET MOVING
I’ve crossed this off because since August 3rd, I have been getting up at 4:30am to hit the gym. I’ve also managed to obstacle train twice a week with my team, and start trailing running. I’ve started this journal all over again in hope that’s I can forever blog my experiences as a new obstacle racer. I’ve let go of the excuses and the early morning thoughts of “man, extra sleep would be great.” Although when I’m really sore or sick, I will cut myself some slack – But I will stop thinking and start doing forever more.
THREE – NO MORE SAYING “I CAN’T”
I will always struggle with this. That’s what these races try to do, break you down and make you cry, question your ability and tear down your toughness. If I can manage to go until someone physically tells me to stop or they will call the police, I will consider that a victory in my books.
THREE.1 GET MENTALLY TOUGH, NOW.
THREE.2 STOP THINKING YOU’RE AVERAGE AND YOU CAN ONLY DO AVERAGE THINGS.
I’m crazy. And since I love to torture myself, and even spend my paychecks and extra “me” time doing so, I have to stop being so fucking stubborn with one simple notion…I’m not average. I can’t eat average, I can’t think average and I CANNOT do average. It’s not thinking I’m better than anyone else. No. If you meet any other Spartan racer, you would know that the love comes from competition and the people racing with you. And the sickest part is, I love it. There is no other place I’d rather be, than right there, with everyone, wondering if this next obstacle or mile will break me. I want to be rolling in mud, I want to be running up a small mountain, I want to be able to feel my heart beating so hard against my chest, that the only thing I can do is laugh.
FOUR LOSE THE FUCKING WEIGHT.
So, okay I use to be lean. But back in 2009, I was going for a very different goal: to compete in fitness. However, that got boring to me and it wasn’t as rewarding as I thought it might have been. Although I never did compete, I’m actually happy. It gave me time to figure out a few personal demons as well as heal from them, along with the other shitty things that happened since then. But now I’m not anymore. I’m heavier, but not out of shape. I see progression every day. I’m losing the fat, I’m keeping my strength and I’m learning to work with myself, instead of against myself.
FOUR.1 DO SIX CIRCUITS OF THE OBSTACLE TRAINING
This is because I miss the mental torture of the Spartan Race. I want to do 3.5 hours of solid work. Just because.
FIVE TREAT MY ACS, BUT TRAIL RUN.
Along with my father passing away this year, a shitty contract job, student loans and extreme shin pain and tightness, I have some managed to scrape myself off the ground, and keep going. Dealing with ACS, or Anterior Compartment Syndrome (there are many terms for this), has rendered me utterly useless when it comes to running on concrete anything for distance or hills. I can however run trail with less pain. I’ve been treating this by myself, because I’ve been told multiple times, the only “true” way to fix it would be with a perfect surgery and circumstance. But that will never happen. So either I strength my legs for trail running, or I get holes drilled into my shins and be out of commission for 3 months without any guarantee it will help…hmmm. Well I hate doctors, I hate medical bills and I hate surgery. So I have been trail running and it’s been a fight, but working with what I have is just going to have to do. I’ve started with new shoes, new treadmills and knowing when to push it and when not to. I have accepted that this will be a slow process, but it’s looking positive right now.
FIVE.1 TRAIL RUN 4 MILES
Depending how my shins feel, I’m going to try to do a 4 mile run this Sat. 9.29.12.
FIVE.2 TRAIL RUN 6 MILES
FIVE.3 TRAIL RUN 8 MILES
FIVE.4 TRAIL RUN 10 MILES
FIVE.5 TRAIL RUN 12 MILES
SIX COMPLETE A SPARTAN SPRINT IN UNDER 1 HOUR
SIX.2 COMPLETE A SUPER SPARTAN SPRINT AKA THE TRI-STATE.
SIX.3 COMPLETE A SPARTAN BEAST
SIX.4 COMPLETE A ULTRA SPARTAN BEAST
SIX.5 COMPLETE A DEATH RACE
SEVEN – DO NOT DIE
SEVEN.1 – IF I CAN’T COMPLETE A RACE, IT WILL NOT BE BECAUSE I GAVE UP.
EIGHT – THE SUCK by GUTCHECKFITNESS
This will always be under construction, but here it is. I haven’t completely figured things out, but it’s the general outline of my “fitness” goals.