I’m not dead! Actually just been crazy busy. I have sworn off running outdoors for a while. I’m convinced when I hurt myself wearing those fucking nike running shoes, it has ruin my running form.
I can only run on a certain treadmill type at the gym – something really sturdy, doesn’t wobble, and I have to continually pay attention to how my feet are positioned. I don’t know what is wrong with me. But its very furstrating and tedious because I can’t let my mind go. The treadmill is boring as shit, so I try to have a blank mind when I’m running indoors, but I can’t have that if I’m constantly arguing with myself: “oh, that hurts…okay my shins feel good..oop don’t do that again, keep your feet straight! don’t wobble to the left! the damn treadmill is shaking…the tv is freaking out, I can’t focus..damnit brain, shut off, stop telling me what to do! i have to tell you what to do or else your shins will start hurting, then run normally! I don’t know how to anymore!”
Yes, I don’t know how to run anymore. For some reason my running form has dissolved into one big hot mess wobbling on the treadmill like it’s a carnival ride.
With that said, last week I missed back, but got 5 days in, three running days. I did about 6 miles total.